why is it so

what the fuck people

2008-10-24T10:01:00.000-07:00

ok i'm pissed really pissed ... funy how groups have bonds like invite some one over to make fun of ... if people fight me i will fight back ...

anyway... i met a girl at the pub the other day she seemed nice i think she is funny ... but im not gonna take any chances ,,, might have a new friend yay

getting my tattoo tuesday biohazzard suken in yay!

not much to say

... some one is try to get to read some thing .... hmm i would but i dont want no how to make that kinda gear

-sPot

the story so far...

2008-10-18T11:50:00.000-07:00

ok so i am Single Homeless Insecure Tired, other wise SHIT,
other wise shit ... om friends with ash again love that 'ho... the other ash the one that was my girl friend fuck me over royally , i was lonely having just come back from bush and she wanted to come over , at this point i could trust her she stole from my friends and from me ... any way she came over fish nets and all but after a night of seamed like having sex with a star fish, i had to go to work she told me she was fine to make her own way home 3-4hrs later i get a call saying that i have to come but clean out my shit cos i was homless and had to move out after work now what happen was ahe ransacked the place stole clothes and make up and shit ... kinda sux i did like her i really did try to make it all work out but i kept feeling she was using me for money and booze ... oh and smokes ... so im now staying at a mates place with him and his mum

brighter note thourt i found a girl that mite LIKE me , we get along quiet well ... spet for the fact that i found out she had a boyfriend ... and to that i say DAM IT ... going full time army soon should be fun atleast there ill know were i stand...

not really feeling the love
-dark soul

god dam it all to helll

2008-07-03T23:42:00.001-07:00

what the fuck why cant it just all go well for once .... ive lost my best friend ... thou i now have a girlfriend good rite? , well no not at the moment cos everyone is telling me shes 15 not 19 like she said , and i was just informed thats shes sleeping with some one else ... i mean what must i do i think i found a nice girl but no ... but hey fuck em all rite , im just gonna see what happens ... i no she lies to me she cant help it ... but i dont think she knows that i no ...

god dam it!!!!! i like this one ....

hey i was thinking

2008-03-29T20:38:00.000-07:00

today i woke up , hung over and thourt why do i drink ... last nite wasn't to bad .... been playing with my desktops and my lappy ... playing with linux is always fun ... it like running windows wen ya drunk and if you had it in german .... mind you i have use linux in german drunk funnny but that was like use mac os x .... it would be funny to use it upside down ....

living in my van now .... got the net and pimpin' it out in broome

-dark soul

what em i doing with my life

2008-03-21T19:31:00.000-07:00

im homelees only till next week i hope .... i miss my girl i want to be with her .... it feels like life is hating on me all the time

sort but sweet

-Dark soul

now what god!

2008-03-17T20:54:00.000-07:00

ok im back from darwin ... that was fun ... now im back in broome last nice i slept on the floor while to girls what fucking them selfs stupid .... i hate it here i think my best mate never wants me to go , and every time i find a girl i mite like ... some how she fucks it all up! .... i went on a bender but i dont wanna drink again for a long time i hate my self some times ... its hard to say how i feel wen i just dont care any more

on a better note i found a realy nice girl ... but if my best mate finds out she'll fuck it all up

god stop playing games ... whats the point of my living on this earth to be fuck around non stop!!!

-dark soul

how

2008-02-24T00:58:00.000-08:00

how can i move on with my life if i feel ive left it behind .... i no i can never have her back , but why must she apper in my life ... today i found a cd of pic .... me and her happy i cry'd ... she hurt me so much she lied to me .... she bagg'd me out ... she controld me but i loved here , and funny thing is ... she moved on so fast ... i hope she is happy and that i never have to deal with her again that would be to much ....

if she was to come back i would die!

-dark soul

so its down to this

2008-02-24T00:20:00.000-08:00

thinking today ... and man have i been an arse... i hate myself some times , and i hate drinking i dont wanna do it ,i dont understand why i do but hey what can i do right , how can i meet new people ....

in the past ive "used" or "played" with people just coz i can im stoping that as well , but what do people what from me ... i mean how can i be a better person ,were the world is full of evil rude and controling people .... if i stop my part of evil will that help?

-dark soul

boot screens for xp

2008-02-24T00:01:00.000-08:00

a while a go i made some boot screens for xp

White Ninja

my White Ninja Boot by ~spotthehazzard on deviant ART

holly

holly boot screen by ~spotthehazzard on deviant ART

2000 boot for xp

windows 2000 boot for xp by ~spotthehazzard on deviant ART

evil

got ya p.cs soul boot by ~spotthehazzard on deviant ART

=meh=

2008-02-22T22:47:00.000-08:00

yeah i've been ok , just chillin' at the kimberly klub atm, work sux arse but its a job i spoes and i need it , or im broke ... im thinking of moveing perth or darwin i think not to sure .... man trying to find a nice girl in broome is hard ay lol .... my mates b-day to day i,ve been told hes coming to broome , well i dont no ay

-Dark soul

one fine morning i found this on my door

2008-02-17T03:34:00.001-08:00

Dear Backpakers,
U might want to know this before u move in:
U woved think that ,by common Sense,
people would NOT have sex in the dorms while others are trying to sleep just a metre away
This is Not the case . Beware of the Inhabitant of room 32. he does NOT think its inapproiate at all.
Go and change rooms while u still can!!
-2 unlucky Backpackers
___________________________________
word for word that the not i had left on my door .... yeah ok it was wrong but hey

grrr feb 14th

2008-02-17T03:28:00.001-08:00

HA the 14th of feb.

Today will last as long as the cards people give one another , in a week or two forgotten , for today is a day you can't be alone...

thous who are Alone,
thous forgotten
and thous of us who remeber a better time,
Want to burn this day at the stake
, much like the saint who this day be name'd after.

asd byt true , to people with some one who you truly love hold them close , if you fight work it out , if you cheat tell the truth , hold that person close and never let go . i have love'd and lost so the 14th is a lonly day for me!

my dad (wanye Napier)

2008-02-17T03:00:00.000-08:00

well hes been in jail most of my life , i use to see him every week wen i was in perth, but being a few 1000km away its bhard to i see him once a year atm ...
he was lock away for murder, still he is human is he not... he wants to get out so
much he has spend every dollor he has on his appel but he is unsure what to do
now i no he loves me and one day he will be able to see me ...

good luck dad

-dark soul

how i become to be im broome

2008-02-17T00:37:00.000-08:00

HA really last nite i came to think why am i in broome, i have no family but i stay becouse of the love of a friend ,i have thourt about leaving bout she always talks me out of it. but really i have no were else i can go , i left my home town becouse i broke up with my girlfriend ,
i was with her for 8 months and i love'd her the hole time thinks got mess'd up after we lost the baby ... i lay awake at nite thinking what i would have been like as a dad and would it have all work'd out , the sad thing is ill never know , i always seem to be that guy with all the female friends
they all think of me as "just" a mate. anyway i left derby after i was offer'd work in broome for a week with "norforce" , that was my kimberly family mates all over the place always good time , they look'd out for me and i did the same . at this time there was an outreach program going on in the NT , they ask me if i wanted to go ... so i did i quit my shitty job in derby , and was looking forward to spending time with all the boys from that side.

i spend 2 weeks in kathrine and anther in darwin before i was sent back ... me and my ex were still talking i wanted her back so baddly but the way she rule'd over me scared me not to... and it seam'd like she was moving on , and i was just some stupid play think .... that hurt a bit
But what hurt more was after i went back to broome
she start'd to bad mouth me to all my friends , sad but they all belevie'd her , agian i was on my own not so bad really , in broome i stay'd out at the depot , not really having any mate in broome at the time i did really do much .... a few weeks after i went to darwin again for my small craft operators cse. i passed! but i did some stupid thing i hook up with a chick not cos i like'd her but cos i was alone and
i new i could , she was a DOG , but thou her is how i met my best mate to this day ... i love her to death
but it just seems i always hurt her .... she start'd coming out to the depot at nite to see me for weeks we just stay'd up all nite talking .... thou after i got kick'd out of the depot ( for riding a scooter around ;-p) i was going back to derby .... death , on the way there one of my mates ask'd why i was going back to derby , well i was only going back becos i had no were else to go! ... i went there for a day and came back tom live with my mate matt( how was a legand cos of the cubins he smoke'd) , thou while in derby i found out my mums house witch i let a mate move in to after i left ( yeah he was a druggie and a dealer) had trash'd it and had got the power disconnted and there were used needles all over the place .... he owe'd m y mum rent, so i msg'd him and call'd him but nothing .... then i got the place raid'd ... i had hope that they had found something but they didn't .... shame really.

living with mat was cool i drank all the time and once or twice mat came to the pub with me and my mates .... good times .... after going to darwin for the last time that year i came back anf now ive been at the kimberly klub backpakkers for a few months i like it here always people around .... and yeah hot girls to perve on .... i would like walk up to some and say something like "hey sugerlips!" but i never do

-dark soul

why is it so

2008-02-17T00:29:00.000-08:00

im starting this blog so that i can let off steam , and just say what i want to , my life has been a little fuck up over the years and i have a lot i want to say about that , i've almost been a dad, ive live with druggies , i move'd out when i was 15 , ill get a round to posting a blog about most of this , maybe some people can realate to what has happen'd to me

-dark soul